Diary of a MAGA Sadist

Titus Andronicus (Act V, Scene 1, L.143-146 by William Shakespeare)

Macbeth (Act IV, Scene 1, L.44-47 by William Shakespeare)

The Wasteland (T.S. Eliot)

On Thursday June 6, 2024 we learned that the Long Island Serial Killer – the portly one named Rex – killed a girl from Poughkeepsie named Jessica Taylor in 2003. He also killed Sandra Costilla. That’s on top of the four he’s been indicted for. He’s suspected of so many more.

In fact on December 17, 2024, larded Rex was indicted for the murder of Valerie Mack. That’s the seventh indictment. He started in at least 1993 – it could have been earlier. Cops did not arrest him until 2023. A span of three decades. Seven is just scratching the surface.

I knew he killed Jessica and Valerie. I wondered if there’d ever be indictments.

 Jessica and Valeri got to me the worst of them all. In their pictures they just seemed the most lost – hence “Lost Girls.” They never had a chance in this cruel world. Angelic essence that nature bore to be tortured, mutilated and killed. Laisse faire MAGA Darwinism.

Jessica was just 20 when corpulent Rex got her. Valerie was 24. And Sandra 28.

A female dog walker found Jessica’s torso on top of a makeshift platform that in turn sat on top of a pile of wood, trees and brush. It was a pretty high pile. I saw pictures of it from back in the day. When the team visited it in January 2023 it looked exactly the same as when they found Jessica but without Jessica. 

We returned in April of 2024 in conjunction with the coordinated searches of the Eastern Long Island Pine Barrens by the SCPD, the State Police and the NYPD. Now the pile looked decimated. Someone rifled through it by hand spreading the logs and brush out – flattening the pile. Law enforcement finally searched it after 24 years. I knew they made fat Rex. 

The female dog walker found Jessica lying on her back with her legs suggestively bent underneath her. A macabre sex pose. Jessica was missing her head and her forearms/hands just below the elbow.

We now know from Rex’s ongoing self-improvement notes to himself – his version of an Anthony Robbins “How To” manual for the sexually depraved – and his inglorious Internet searches, that Rex was into the “sexualization of decapitation.” I have no idea what that means. I know Ed “the Co-Ed Killer” Kemper used the decapitated heads of some of his victims for oral sex. Perhaps Rex mounted the place where the head used to be. Or he whacked off while decapitating. Or he did what Ed did. 

In conjunction with his internet searches “autopsy of female” it hints that Rex decapitated girls while they were still living. It’s called exsanguination – causing life ending blood loss.

Rex mutilated Jessica’s breast nipples.

Given the heavy nature of the content – let alone the heavy weight of Rex – I have decided to add positive affirmations. It also helps with the lucrative Self-Help genre. 

So here:

Every day and in every way I am getting better and better.

Listen …

The Feds stripped clean the computers, phones, cameras etc. – that the task force seized from Rex’s dilapidated house and office when they executed the July 2023 search warrant. Jesus this pudgy fuck appreciated electronics more than food: 15 cameras; 27 computers; 46 phones; 58 Internal hard drives; 22 External hardrives; 9 WiFi Routers; 44 S.D. micro cards; 17 tablets; 42 USBs; 8 laptops; 36 Sim Cards; 657 C.D./Floppy Discs; and 48 miscellaneous items of electronic media.

The lesson to all you pedophiles, perverts and plain old average American Conservative Libertarians is that if you look it up on your electronic device or store it there – computer, phone, tablet, etc. see above – or you create it there … well when it comes to the Feds it’s there forever.

They found Rex’s diary/self-improvement notes – “Bind, Torture, Kill Manual.” (“BTK Manual”) And his ghastly Internet searches just get more mercilessly degenerate. It demonstrates that not even my horror strewn imagination could correctly predict – although I came close – how depraved and sadistic Rex is. And he is a political “Conservative” too – which I predicted because only hypocrites could be so debased. 

Large Rex’s “BTK Manual” – he titled it HK 2000-03 (Volume 1) and HK 2002-04 (Volume 2) – described the portable torture chamber that Rex would set up in his basement. I am sure the sound proof gun vault where he kept over 300 firearms played a role. But I am also sure he used the whole downstairs space.

What does the “HK” stand for: I bet “Heuermann Kill.”

Listen …

This is what chubby Rex did to the girls.

In the months after Rex’s arrest, the FBI and Secret Service – because you can’t trust the Suffolk County Police Department – extracted and analyzed data from each of the over 350 electronic devices they grabbed in the warrant execution. They found rotund Rex’s big fat collection of violent bondage and torture pornography, dating back to 1994.

The pornographic images accessed by Heuermann include, but are not limited to, breast mutilation, vaginal torture, sex substitution (i.e., penetration with an object), the sexualization of decapitated women [told you], bondage, and whipping, which notably and largely coincide with how the remains of Sandra Costilla, Jessica Taylor, and Valerie Mack were discovered.

I bet one time Vice President Al Gore no longer takes credit for creating the Internet.

Rex planned his kills with military precision. Afterall Rex was one of those Conservative paramilitary types that belonged to the National Rifle Association, gun clubs, shooting ranges, and regularly shopped at Army/Navy Surplus stores where he could buy camouflage jackets, inert hand grenades, inert artillery shells, and maybe an actual used gas cannister from Auschwitz. Heil Heuermann.

Rex in his “HK Planning Document” (“BTK Manual”) carefully laid out by category a table of everything he needed to do to make his killing pleasurable and lasting. Under the benign category of “PROBLEMS” Rex listed such things as “DNA;” “BLOOD STAINS;” “WITNESSES;” “FINGERPRINTS;” and even “FINGERPRINTS IN GLOVES” etc. etc. – fucking ingenious.

But Rex you portly fuck you also listed “HAIR & FIBER” – didn’t you. The fact that you listed it last says a lot heavy boy. Stay tuned …

The next column in chubby Rex’s HK Planning Document is “SUPPLIES.” A good military operation always relies on logistics. Tactics win battles. Logistics win wars.

“BOOTIES” is the first supply. How effeminate.

Next is “LIE/ACID.” The larded one can’t spell. He meant “lye” as in the caustic liquid. Lye and Acid of course burn skin. Very painful. He could have used it to torture. Or to destroy faces and fingerprints. But heavy Rex is very utilitarian so he probably used it for both.

No one has ever found an intact face or fingers with a Rex victim except Sandra Costilla back in 1993 – but cops are not releasing all the information. And the HK Planning Document was created from 2000 to 2004. At least seven years after Sandra.

Next we have “Police Scanner.” You know the type of people that have police scanners. Cross dressing, S&M, Cop buffs. That’s people that worship cops. I suppose he might want to listen to the scanner to see if someone called in suspicious activity around where he was torturing or dumping a girl.

What kill kit is complete without “ROPE/CORD.” Larded Rex’s favorite thing on earth was binding girls and hanging them up. Need plenty of “ROPE/CORD” for that.

Sorry to say but next is “SAW/CUTTING TOOLS.” Cannot dismember without them. The “SAW” was to dismember though. The “CUTTING TOOLS” plural were for torture – back slash – MUTILATION. 

Oh … the next one is big: “HAIR NETS.” Plural – so prissy.

Rex … what happened … you morbidly obese sadist. Did you forget your hair nets. Did you take them off during party time. Because you left your hair on three of the dead girls you were indicted for: Sandra Costilla, Jessica Taylor and Megan Waterman. Hey overweight Rex your freaky wife’s hair and/or your daughter’s hair and your female companion’s hair were found on four of the six victims. Poor Megan Waterman had your hair Rex, your freaky wife Asa’s hair and your daughter Victoria’s hair. Is that why you said, “Hair Nets” as in plural with the “s” at the end of “Nets.”

I don’t want to create an Internet frenzy. According to the “Gilgo Task Force” Rex’s family was out of town for almost all of his murders. But they left their hair in Rex’s house.

Next Rex you get quite fanciful: “PHOTO FILM” so you could take pictures of your work with your 15 cameras; and look at them when you whacked off between kills.

Rex if I could sit down and interview you the first question I would ask you would be this:

“How did you whack off so much and still stay so fucking fat.”

Next up on rotund Rex’s supply list is “BURN CAN.” A “BURN CAN” could be something resembling a circular metal trash can with holes punched in it. The obvious use is to burn evidence of his sadistic killings. Blood stained items. Especially clothes or shoes etc. Rex generally liked to dump his victim’s bodies nude. Meticulous wide boy had to do something with the clothes. His neighbors commented shortly after his arrest that Rex was always burning things in his back yard.

But a “BURN CAN” could also be something even more ominous. Burn cans are also known as “gel dressings.” This type “burn can” is used to treat burns by drawing heat away from the burn. They come in different sizes, including arm-sized, hand-sized, and face-sized. Would plus sized Rex torture girls by burning them with … say an electric shock. Then treat the wound to keep the girl conscious.

Positive Affirmation:

I have good days and I have bad days. But I like me.

Here we go with “FOAM DRAIN CLEANER.” Why? This is what it does according to one manufacturer … “One chamber contains a thickened formula that dissolves hair and gunk. The other contains a foaming agent that carries the formula throughout the entire pipe. The two liquids combine to create a deep cleaning foam that clears your slow drain and cleans your pipe walls.” “Hair and gunk?” Like hair and flesh when you cut girls up and flush some of the byproducts down the toilet or sink. One manufacturer extolls another virtue: “Eliminates fats, oils, grease and odors [in other words human flesh] in disposals, grease traps, septic tanks, downpipes and drain lines.” Pieces of human flesh bone and hair when sent down the drain will tend to clog things up and smell bad. Chubby Rex with paramilitary precision thinks of everything

Nasty business … right Rex? 

And Rex’s list of supplies continues: “BODY WASH/WIPES.” Clean guy … right? No … He used it on the girls to get rid of his saliva, semen, prints and God only knows what else.

“TARPS/DROP CLOTHS” – he’s a big back slash “/” guy that likes to double tap with his descriptions. Probably planned a good picknick. “Coke/Dr. Pepper.” “Sausage/Pepperoni.” “Franks/Beans.” Yuk. Fat farting Rex. Etc. 

Anyway you obviously want tarps and/or drop cloths to put the tortured/dead girls on and wrap them with. But there were other reasons.

The next is easy: “MEDICAL GLOVES.” Mutilation and dismemberment is medical type work. Dress the part while leaving no prints. Burn the gloves to avoid prints inside the gloves – remember that from the “PROBLEMS” section of his manifesto.

And then “BAGS/TAPE.” When you’re carrying around torsos, heads, arms, legs, etc.”… you want to bag it and tape it. Same with evidence.

OH NO …

“LARGE ELEC CLIPS” shorthand for “Large Electrical Clips.” The “Encyclopedia of World Problems & Human Potential” warns “high voltage electricity is being used extensively in torture. Electrical clips are attached to sensitive areas and repeatedly switched on.” (Emphasis added) See http://encyclopedia.uia.org/en/problem/167960. (I have no idea what “Human Potential” there is in torture) Rex zapped girls genitalia, nipples and other sensitive areas while they hung from his ceiling – wait … you will see.

Electrocution causes burns which he may have treated with “BURN CANS.”

Positive Affirmation:

Age is just a number.

Finally, last but not least, we get to “Ratched Cargo Strap” and the further realization that this immense fat cell laden monstrosity cannot spell. He meant “Ratchet Cargo Strap.” Ratchet straps are used to secure cargo or equipment during transport. They are made of webbing with tie-down hardware and a ratchet that reduces the amount of force needed to tighten the straps. Ratchet straps can be used for a variety of applications, including securing cargo to the floor of a flatbed truck or the sides of an enclosed trailer. 

Here is what Hefty Rex did. He used the ratchet like a lever to tighten the heavy duty strap around some portion of the girls … like extra tighten – till things broke. He’s not strapping them to his SUV like a deer carcass. You’ll see …

The next category in the HK Planning Document (“BTK Manual”) is mercilessly short. The heading for the category is “DS.” See the military bearing. Abbreviations for everything.

“DS” stands for “Dump Site.” There we have the following notation: “DS-1, Mill RD.” Mill Road in Manorville is right in the vicinity of where Jessica Taylor’s torso was found in July of 2003. It is also right where Valerie Mack’s torso is found in November of 2000.

I can still hear the shotgun blasts ring out as we walked to the thicket where hunters found Valerie. “You’re not allowed to shoot us … we are not deer” I shouted out as blasts defiantly kept coming. Almost like Rex scouted the area.

That is exactly what pudgy Rex did. 

Not surprisingly Rex was a member of gun club called the Peconic River Sportsman's Club in Manorville. A fine bunch of law abiding Conservatives when they’re not storming the capitol. The club’s shooting instructor Ira Ruderman remembers Heuermann as an “affable, high-powered gun enthusiast who regularly competed and volunteered as a coach at the Peconic River Sportsman's Club.”

He probably taught budding serial killers how to hunt human prey. 

The police – some of whom may have been members – asked for gun club records as they ventured to Manorville to re-investigate the murders of Jessica Taylor and Valerie Mack. Gun club records show Heuermann participated in shooting competitions and courses in the early 2000s.

"There it was. He attended some events. I was kind of surprised that his named popped up as often as it did. I guess it just places him in the area … that he knew the area," Ruderman said. 

Ira … you putz … Rex scouted the area while he was visiting your fine establishment. Ira, Rex knew the area and the sycophants that come to your spree killer/elementary school shooter training grounds.

Heuermann participated in an event at Peconic River the day before Jessica Taylor disappeared. In recent interviews the club tried to disown poor Rex but when he coached your kids – that’s tough.

Conservative politician and loyal Trump bitch former Congressman – now head of the EPA – Lee “Kremlin” Zeldin never runs out of good things to say about the club on his Facebook account. Zeldin brags about his military service in the army JAG Corp – lawyers – where he spent all of nine days in Iraq before being evacuated for a “mental health emergency.”

For those of you who want to go there it is located at 389 River Rd, Manorville, NY 11949. You can call them at (631) 727-5248. Tell them I sent you.

Next on the “PLANNING DOCUMENT” under “DS” – dump site – Rex is almost using a novelist’s technique of foreshadowing. Rex writes “DS-2??????” He’s looking for a second dump site for the heads; arms/hands, feet, etc.

He obviously found it – that would be Ocean Parkway near Gilgo Beach. 

My problem is this – he killed Valerie Mack sometime in the time frame of September 1, to November 19, 2000. According to the Secret Service the Planning Document was created in 2000. Rex then continued to work on it making modifications between 2001 to 2002 ultimately creating a second edition. 

When he killed and dismembered Valerie – around the same time that he created the first edition of the Planning Document/Diary of a Serial Killer –he still did not have that “DS-2??????” (Second Dump site). In fact the version of the Planning Document where he says “DS-2??????” was created sometime in 2001 to 2002. 

Did he hold onto Valerie’s head, arms/hands and right foot for sometime until he found it.

Six question marks after “DS-2??????” – that means Rex desperately searched for that second dump site.

We have another problem. If Rex is looking for the second dump site in 2001-2002 – or even 2000 – how did Fire Island Jane’s Doe’s head get out to Ocean Parkway west of Gilgo in 1996. How did Peaches arms and her daughter get to Ocean Parkway near Gilgo in 1997. If he didn’t have the second dumpsite by the early 2000s he did not have it in 1996-1997. Did he store those body parts too? 

We know how he found Dump Site Two. As a young man he worked at Jones Beach a few miles west of Gilgo. He worked there in his early 20s. A nice State job for the summers. He passed Gilgo plenty of times. Like a bolt of lightning it struck him. “Damn Rex … you fat boy,” he told himself. “Use the Ocean Parkway by Gilgo where you worked. It’s close to where my buddy ‘the torso killer’ dumped a victim or two.”



A man that worked with Rex told me that while working at Jones Beach, Rex would sometimes be assigned to Gilgo Beach itself where his crew performed manual labor associated with Jones Beach.

Rex further notes in his “Planning Document:” 

DUMPSTER SITE

(NEXT TIME RECON

DUMSTER [sic] LOCATIONS)

Fucking rotund idiot cannot spell to save his life. “Dumster” obviously means Dumpster. The “next time” Rex kidnaps, tortures, kills and dismembers some poor girl he wants to use a dumpster. 

Joel Rifkin who was probably a local hero to Rex – and operated around the time Rex got started – sometimes used dumpsters to dump bodies. But not Rex. Later in the “Planning Document” Rex lists items that need to be disposed of such as “TOOLS AND DEVICES” as well as “PROPS, TOYS, WOOD ITEMS …” That shows two things. First he wanted to use a dumpster to get rid of evidence. 

Secondly he used a lot of torture aides – “TOOLS AND DEVICES” and “PROPS, TOYS, WOOD ITEMS … [etc.]” – all of which seemed normal to this Conservative architect for Trump Tower renovations.

Positive affirmation:

It’s always darkest before the dawn.

Not true. Insomniacs can attest it does get lighter out before dawn.

Rex’s dialogue with himself continues:

TRG

T-1, MEGAN?

SMALL IS GOOD

T-UNK (BLACK)

“TRG” is Rex in his military terminology referring to a “Target.” That “Target” is a young woman. The “T-1” is easy – Target 1. Not his first. He’s killed perhaps five girls by now – perhaps dozens – we don’t know. This Target 1 is his next Target. And it appears that he wants it to be a girl named “Megan.” This is too early for Megan Waterman who Rex did not target until June of 2010. We don’t even know if Rex knew that Megan Waterman’s name was Megan when he contacted her because escorts use fictitious names.

Based upon the information released by the District Attorney in the Superseding Bail Application a Pennsylvania woman came forward to identify who Megan was. She told a veteran reporter: "I found my best friend's phone number is listed in the new documents recovered from his (Heuermann's) home."

T-1 INFO [Megan] CELL# 917-294-4402

The woman’s name was Danielle Goodling. She worked as an escort. She probably went by the name of Megan. She is dead.

She was blonde with a small build. Danielle Goodling looked like other women associated with the Gilgo case: Melissa Barthelemy and Shannan Gilbert. 

Rex did not get her.

Danielle Goodling died in April 2021, from a suspected drug overdose and liver trouble.

Rex noted to himself “SMALL IS GOOD.” The first thing that comes to mind is that a small woman is easier to dispose of. She’s also easier to incapacitate. But it appears – based upon Rex’s Internet searches that this is Rex’s sexual preference – he is a pedophile as noted by his porn searches. Small women look like little girls.

Rex tells you a lot when he notes: T-UNK (BLACK). He’s already lining up his next victim and he wants her to be Black. His Internet searches demonstrate that he wants Black girls. He killed one in 1993 and two in 1997.

According to the District Attorney’s Third Bail Application: “The HK Planning Document on Heuermann’s computer then delves into a three-category section with the headings of ‘PRE-PREP,’ ‘PREP,’ and ‘POST-EVENT’” 

Cold. Calculated. 

Law enforcement believes PRE-PREP – 

to be a guide on steps to take in advance of a homicide, i.e., inspecting his vehicle, engaging the target, conducting a “RECON” or survey of video surveillance cameras in pertinent areas including the “PICK-ZONE” (i.e., location where a victim is picked-up), and checking the weather to ensure for optimal conditions. 

What does he mean by “ENGAGE T-1.” It’s not grabbing a girl. We’re still at the “PRE PREP” stage. This means checking them out as they “street walk.” At that point escorts are mostly walking the streets and sidewalks – not on the Internet yet. He looks for surveillance cameras while he shops. 

He mentions “LOCATE DS-2.” He is still looking for that Dumpsite for heads, hands, etc. 

When we get to the category called “PREP” we really need to pick up on the positive affirmations. Sing this Diddy (oops) …

The sun will come out tomorrow. Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow.

First under “PREP” is “SET-UP STAGE.” That’s Rex’s portable torture chamber complete with a “HOLDING AREA.” What is a holding area? That’s the place where he imprisons the girls in between bouts of torture. It has the to be the concrete and steel sound proof gun vault where Rex stored some 300 weapons. 

Gun advocates are quick to point out that Rex did not shoot anyone so he did not use the weapons in the commission of the crimes. But we do not know. He may have shot some poor girl and the body has not been found yet. He may have used a weapon to control or supplicate a girl while binding her or shoving her into the gun vault. Rex’s closest killer in terms of methodology – BTK – did that.

Rex had to “BUILD TABLE” which would be his Serial Killer torture and dismember table just like in the show Dexter. The table came complete with a “CROSS BAR” which reinforced the table so that he could do some really heavy hardcore stuff to the girl strapped to the table.

Then we have “HARD POINT.” In sadomasochistic terminology this is – well let law enforcement explain:

a “HARD POINT” refers, in the field of sexual “suspension bondage,” to a fixed attachment point in the ceiling that supports the weight of an individual being suspended off of the ground, which is corroborated by Heuermann’s significant interest in pornography where the subject is either suspended, tortured, bound to a table, decapitated, and/or their breasts are mutilated, which is consistent with the foregoing notations regarding suspension, as well as the condition of the victims described herein. 



That’s legalese – and a horrible “run on sentence” – for Rex hangs them alive from the ceiling while he does all kinds of heinous brutal things to them.

This cements the fact that he did not just catch, sex and kill. He kept those poor girls for days. In the holding area when they weren’t hanging from the ceiling. His family was mostly away or with at least one victim – perhaps more – he lived alone. 

He took days and savored the pain. 



Round Rex used the Internet as a tool to see what form of torture turned him on – and then he did it. 

Positive Affirmation … 

“Think and Grow Rich.”

I think the District Attorney gets it right with regard to “POST EVENT:”

a checklist of tasks following the “event” or homicide to avoid apprehension, i.e., “DISTROY [sic] FILE,” “CHANGE TIRES,” “BURN GLOVES,” “DISPOSE OF PICS” taken of the victim, and “HAVE STORY SET” (e.g., alibi, story for family upon their return, or law enforcement, should an inquiry be made).

Rex cannot plan enough.

Paramilitary Conservative NRA Rex doesn’t just do “RECON” – he drafts reports notating the presence of specific video cameras on the heavily trafficked “LIE” (Long Island Expressway) and “SS PKWY” (Southern State Parkway) used to monitor road conditions. Part of his “RECON” is poor Megan’s “CELL#” – as we talked about earlier he never got her. Drugs did.



Next up …

You not only have to marvel at how meticulous it is – it’s also intelligent. He doesn’t even want his charge card to show up in the area where he looks for victims. He doesn’t want to spend too much time in the area where a girl is last seen. And “NEXT TIME” he picks up a girl to torture and kill – presumably following Valerie – he wants to make sure there are no cameras where he picks her up. Finicky planning by an architect who’s very nature is planning.

The next section of Rex’s manifesto requires a dose of positive affirmation …

Patience is a virtue. (Unless you’re old – then it’s just surrendering to death)

Goodness let me try again …

80 is the new 60.

“BODY PREP” speaks for itself. WASH BODY INSIDE AND ALL CAVITIES – not enough to wash “INSIDE” – he wants to wash the “ALL CAVITIES” that get you “INSIDE” the body. How many cavities did he violate? 

He covers all bases: “REMOVE TRACE EVIDENCE FINGER PRINTS/HAIR] … then “REMOVE TRACE DNA” 

He also removes “ID MARKS” like TATOOS [sic], MARKS.” Marks are birth marks, scars, etc. that can be used to identify a victim. 

He sliced up Jessica’s hip tattoo – the one that said, “REMY’S ANGEL” and had angel wings. A tribute to her masterfully idiotic pimp.

I kept wondering why there was no semen found in or on Jessica and Valerie. Now I know why there wasn’t. The other explanation is he strictly used “PROPS, TOYS, WOOD ITEMS…….” on them. [found in DISPOSE OF THE FOLLOWING.”]

If you missed REMOVE MARKS FROM TOURTURE [sic]” then you’re a twit. He misspelled “torture.” 

Followed by “REMOVE HEAD AND HANDS.” Valerie’s head, hands and right foot mid-calf [a tattoo of her son’s name on her ankle/foot] were removed. With Jessica it was head, hands, forearms – probably a tattoo. They only found Karen Vergatta’s head. With Peaches he removed a whole bunch of stuff. 

Then like he worked at FedEx he “PACKAGE[D] FOR TRANSPORT” – they were all bundled and bound.

He disposed of everything. “ANYTHING THAT TOUCHED T-1.” Some of what he disposed of is a bit troubling. The aforementioned “PROPS, TOYS, WOOD ITEMS…….” is one. The “WOOD ITEMS” is cringe worthy. Probing victims with “wood items” … Splinters. And after “wood items” he has a seven dot ellipsis “…….” instead of the grammatically correct three “…” That means he had a lot of other items.

The first item in his disposal list is even worse. “TOOLS AND DEVICES.” More reference to torture, dismemberment and probably torture through dismemberment. We’re not done. 



That bring us to our next category: “THINGS:TO REMEMBER” – why did he use a colon “:” in between “THINGS” and “TO?” What kind of hefty illiterate writes this way? 

We might need a positive affirmation …

“It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.”

Rex writes …

SOUND TRAVELS (IE: BIRD OUTSIDE) CONTROL THE AMOUNT OF AIR IN AND OUT TO CONTROL THE NOISE MADE

He’s reminding himself that when you’re slicing up, electrocuting, etc. girls … they are going to scream. A few items down he makes a related notation:

USE PUSH PINS TO HANG DROP CLOTHES [sic] FROM CEILING – NOT TAPE

“DROP CLOTHES” is supposed to be “DROP CLOTHS.” He is hanging them from the ceiling because they will absorb sound. So will his concrete and steel gun vault. But he likes to use the whole basement for his torture. So using his knowledge of architecture he’s devised a way to seal in the screams of the girls as he tortures them. If he can hear a bird outside he knows they can hear girls screaming outside so he takes steps. Why push pins as opposed to tape? Tape will mark the walls.

There is more of this that tells us about just how long he tortured girls:

MORE SLEEP & NOISE CONTROL = MORE PLAY TIME

If no one hears the screams and cries he can keep playing. And if he gets his rest – puts them in the “HOLDING AREA” – the prison – while he catches some ZZZs … well then he can play more. 

When we drive around Rex’s neighborhood we are astounded to see so many “Back the Blue” and “Trump” flags. Round Rex did not want to disturb his sweet Conservative neighbors.

“Play time” he calls it. Vaginal torture, breast mutilation, electrocution, dismemberment, whipping etc.

“GET SLEEP BEFORE HUNT TOO TIRED CREATS PROBLEMS:” Again with the fucking misspellings: It’s “CREATES” Rex. And what kind of sicko uses all CAPs for every word.

Here we go …

HIT HARDER TOO MANY HIT TO TAKE DOWN. CONSIDER A HIT TO THE FACE OR NECK NEXT TIME FOR TAKE DOWN.

He calls the moment he springs the trap on the poor girl and disables her so he can get her into the torture chamber … tough guy calls it the “TAKE DOWN.”

I talk to a man from Ireland named Wayne Whitty that makes it his hobby to study serial killers. He is quite good. He makes videos about them that he posts on YouTube. He did one about Rex’s house. He got the blue prints somehow. And pulled up photos released by the District Attorney’s Office, etc. He pieced the whole layout together.

It turns out then when you walked down the stairs into Rex’s basement it wasn’t just a cold concrete room. Some of it was “finished” as they say in real estate. He had a man cave of a room down there for a part of the basement. It had carpet. Paneling. A television. A sofa. Perfect to lure the girls downstairs to a noise proof environment right next to the torture chamber on the other side of the paneling.

And when a girl did not expect it … Rex would strike her … to render her unconscious or semi-conscious for the short trip to the torture chamber or holding area. However he started.

In his note he laments that the last time he did it – perhaps Valerie – there were “TOO MANY HIT TO TAKE DOWN.” Grammatically a horror show but you get the point.



The poor girl was probably screaming as Rex started hitting her to gain control. She might have broken away. Ran up the stairs and tried to get to the door. She did not make it. She’s only about five feet tall and weighs a hundred pounds. Rex is 6’4” or 6’5” and at least 270 pounds. She must have really wanted to live.

This is horror show stuff.

So the “NEXT TIME” – perhaps Jessica – Rex has to hit “harder” and consider a “hit” to the “face” or “neck” to get the job done.

Remember Rex has to be careful here too. Because if he kills the girl – well it all goes to hell because there is no fun in torturing a dead or comatose girl. No horrific screams and squeals and begging.

“It is never too late to be what you might have been.”

Not only did Rex have trouble knocking the last girl out despite his tremendous size and weight advantage. He also had a rope problem …

USE HEVEY ROPE FOR NECK-LIGHT ROPE BROKE UNDER STRESS OF BEING TIGHTEND.

You fat corpulent motherfucker I am so tired of the misspellings. It is “HEAVY” not “HEVEY.” And it is “TIGHTENED” not “TIGHTEND.” I played “Tightend” for my highschool football team you obese oddity. Travis Kelce is a Tightend or he was.

Rex did not bind the dead girl’s necks for packaging. He tightened ropes around their necks for torture. On a skinny little girl he tightened it so tight that it broke. What happened to her? From now on Rex vows to use “HEVEY ROPE.”

In early March of 2025 we will learn still more about Rex and his twisted ritualistic torture. We learn it in Affidavits filed in opposition to Rex’s smarmy legal team’s motion to split the seven indictments into five separate trials. With regard to Amber Costello: "A folded shirt was recovered from inside of the victim's oral cavity." “Oral cavity” would be mouth.

What kind of pressure ... What kind of force … does it take to shove a folded shirt into the mouth a 100 pound girl who is not even five feet tall. Amber is the girl who along with her roomate tricked Rex into paying for sex without getting it … remember her roomate stormed into the room playing the jilted boyfriend.

They found Megan Waterman with a paper towel in her mouth. That’s not comfortable either.

I have to speculate that Rex may have engaged in waterboarding which uses cloth placed in or over the mouth to prevent the escape of water poured into the nose and sinus cavities.

Or was it a bizarre statement?

Here is where it gets interesting. It turns out that Rex had the best Serial Killer instructor in the whole world. 

The Gilgo Beach investigation task force – it had to be the FBI – established the source of the above notes to be the paperback Mind Hunter written by John Douglas. Specifically the First Edition published in 1996. A book about profiling serial killers. I read it in 1996.

John Douglas is a retired special agent and profiler with the FBI. He spent 25 years in the FBI’s Behavioral Analysis Unit. Douglas interviewed over a dozen serial killers and other violent sexual offenders. I rather interview Rihanna. 

In the spirit of Capitalism Douglas cashed in with numerous publications, including the Mind Hunter book. Douglas is purportedly crestfallen that his book about how to catch serial killers became a “Serial Killer for Dummies” manual for Rex and almost certainly others.

The “NOTES” section of the HK Planning Document includes the following reference:

PG 162-SEX SUBTITUTION, PG 163, PG 175 MUILTITION = DISORIGINANIZEDED

Page 162 of Mind Hunter references sex substitution – penetration with an object – described as the “rather horrible sexual mutilation and masturbation over [the victim’s] body, but no intercourse. The penetration with the umbrella and pen were acts of sexual substitution.” 

On page 163, Douglas opines that the perpetrator of sex substitution is a “disorganized” killer who would be “compulsive” and perhaps “living with his parents.” 

Rex lived in his parent’s home until his arrest. His childhood home. He never moved out. Very common for Massapequa.

PG 175 MUILTITION = DISORIGINANIZEDED

Most horrible is Rex’s mutilation of the spelling of “mutilation” and “disorganized.”   

At Page 175 of the first-edition of Mind Hunter Douglas describes a woman’s screams followed by the cutting of a woman’s throat – her naked body mutilated. Douglas asserts that mutilation is a sign of “disorganized personality type.”

I had troubles with the book. One killing described in it still troubles me.

Rex did not just get his ideas from the Internet. He got them from the FBI too.

It all comes together with this:

LOOK AT THE "PAINTING" WHAT-WHY-WHO

At Page 19 of Mind Hunter, Douglas notes that he always advised his agents:

[i]f you want to understand the artist [the perpetrator], you have to look at the painting [the victim]. We’ve looked at many ‘paintings’ over the years and talked extensively to the most ‘accomplished’ ‘artists.’

The other notations contained in the “HK Planning Document:” “SPUR OF THE MOMENT,” “COVER,” “STOCKHOLM SYNDROME,” “THE MORE YOU DO THE MORE CLUES YOU GIVE” are also each contained in Mind Hunter.

Here’s the payoff …

Rex is the epitome of “organized” – methodically punctiliously planning his crimes. He even removed the marks that torture left on bodies. But even as he removed the marks of his torture he performed post mortem mutilations to the bodies to make himself appear “disorganized” in order to throw the FBI off.

He must have laughed when Police Chief Burke and District Attorney Spota threw the FBI off the entire case.

Did any of you catch something that is extremely troubling over and above all of the other troubling contents of Rex’s BTK Manual. I mentioned it:

STOCKHOLM SYNDROME

"Keep your face always toward the sunshine, and shadows will fall behind you."

Stockholm syndrome is a psychological response. It occurs when hostages/abuse victims bond with their captors/abusers. This psychological connection develops over the course of the days, weeks, months, or even years of captivity or abuse. Over the course of time, some victims develop positive feelings toward their captors.

Rex kept his victims for a long time if he is talking Stockholm Syndrome. This is corroborated by the fact that his family went on long vacations when his known victims disappeared.

Getting back to Jessica who endured all of this. She disappeared on the night of July 21, 2003. Rex’s truck is seen backing into the sump access road at approximately 10:30 p.m. on July 25, 2003. Her torso is found the next day. She spent some three or four days hanging from Rex’s ceiling, all bound up, surrounded by tarps, being tortured and mutilated.

When Rex mutilated the tattoo of angel’s wings with the words “Remy’s Angel” on Jessica’s hip he enjoyed it but it had practical reasons. He knew it could be used to identify her. And if you identify her then chances are someone saw Rex pick her up off the street. That’s why Rex took the head – dental records and facial sketches – and the hands … fingerprints

It took an intrepid medical examiner a long time and loads of stitches to reconstruct it – and that is how we know what it said. As I said it referred to her strutting ridiculous looking pimp – I’ve seen Jessica in pictures with him and other girls. One big happy family.

Anyway a D.C. detective identified the tattoo as belonging to Jessica Taylor a few months later. She’d been busted on prostitution charges.

Rex placed Jessica’s torso on a surgical drape – how considerate of him. Rex was a bushy haired motherfucker. The medical examiner’s office and crime lab did a great job because amongst other things they found a single hair on the surgical drape. You were so careful Rex. But you forgot the ultimate. The hair net you mentioned in your BTK manual. 

And you also failed to realize that you and everyone that you live with deposited hair all over your house – so if you do your victims at your home – well you have to create a sterile space. You tried. But not sterile enough. Because your wives and your daughter’s hair ended up on the bodies. Look at your shower drain in jail. Head hair. Pubic hair. Body hair. It’s fucking gross. 

It turns out that hair is amenable to DNA analysis.

Jessica was a street walker right by your office in Midtown Manhattan Rex. She disappeared from that area on July 21, 2003. We know you were there that day.

And someone saw your first generation green Chevrolet Avalanche backed up into the sump access road where they found part of Jessica. They saw it thirteen hours before Jessica’s mother dialed 911 from Poughkeepsie where Jessica was supposed to be attending her mother’s birthday party.

And then Rex you busy, busy man. You had to do an Internet search for the Newsday story about the finding of poor Jessica’s torso. You whacked to that didn’t you. We know … And you knew that it was incriminating so you deleted it. But you can’t delete a single thing from the Secret Service computer forensics team who recreated it.

And you knew your dark green Chevy Avalanche was spotted so you went shopping on the internet for a new one – light white or blue. And you deleted that search too. Didn’t you? But the Secret Service just recreated it from the unallocated space in your hard drive.   

Rex you recall in your DISPOSE OF THE FOLLOWING LIST:

DISTROY BOOK AND COMPUTER FILES

First what kind of a deranged sociopath spells “destroy” – “DISTROY.” Secondly it appears that you destroyed Mind Hunter but your forget to destroy one of Douglas’ other perverse books “The Cases that Haunt Us.” The Task Force recovered that book in your home office during the initial search warrant execution in July 2023. The book discusses “the facts, evidence, and victimology of several notable serial murder cases.” Here Rex:

You also failed to destroy the computer files even though you bought special software that is supposed to scrub hard drives clean. You got ripped off. The task force says:

when a user deletes data, many users believe the file has been purged forever. However, “deleting” a file only tells the computer that the space previously occupied by that file is now available. The “deleted” data will remain in “unallocated space” until another file is written over it. Data contained within “unallocated space” can be retrieved via a computer forensic extraction method called “file carving.”

What is entirely shocking about all of this is that chubby Rex created the document in Microsoft Word which had a good “spell check.”

My unallocated space has dozens of photos of the Williams sisters buttocks – Venus and Serena.

Police found Jessica’s skull, hands and it appears one forearm on Ocean Parkway just east of Gilgo Beach in 2011. I don’t know what happened to the other forearm and why it was removed from the hand. I bet she had a forearm tattoo.

I went to Jessica’s address in Poughkeepsie. It’s a bad place. South Central Los Angeles meets white trash Appalachia. I knocked on the door that bore her address. A retired African American prison guard – I think they’re called Corrections Officers – answered. He called himself a “retired prison guard.” He had a gun. I wasn’t going to argue.

 I was wearing a suit. He said, “what makes you think you could show up at my door looking like a police detective.” I said, “I am a lawyer that spent the morning in Court north of Albany. I am unarmed.” He responded, “if you were a detective you’d have shown me your badge.” “But I’m not,” I snapped. Next he told me that if I were Black he could have shot me dead. “I’d get away with it.” He warned he could still pull out his gun. I said, “please shoot me. I am getting so old.” 

I never seen such a touchy man before in my life. But he sensed the sincerity and it turned out okay. He gave me bottled water. Two ice cold twelve ouncers. And a friendship was made.

The retired prison guard told me that in Poughkeepsie the police were raping and killing prostitutes and dumping them in the municipal park by the river – that’d be the Hudson River. He said his address just happened to be the same as the project across the street. That’s where Jessica lived twenty years back. 

Drug dealers right near where the children played on the swing sets out front. They took off when they saw me. The single moms seemed to like me. I might have gotten a date if I hung out a little longer … and some kids to raise. 

Jessica’s mother showed up at the press conference announcing that they indicted her daughter’s killer. Jessica’s mother was older than me now. 

Jessica herself would be 44. Young enough to still enjoy life or not.

It was tough being African American there. It must have been real tough being a white girl there too.

On Thursday June 6, 2024 we also learned that Rex killed a girl from Trinidad Tobago named Sandra Costilla in 1993. Pretty girl. An Islander of African descent and Asian descent. Exotic looks. That nice broad beaming smile. She reminds me of so many girls I dated when I was young. 

Sandra is found by hunters in the woods of North Sea which is a Hamlet of South Hampton Township. It must be in the Northern part of South Hampton which is on the south shore of Long Island and oh so posh. 

Ms. Costilla was found lying on her back with her arms outstretched over her head. Her bare legs were spread far apart. Her shirt was pulled up over her head exposing her breasts. She was graphically posed for max sexual denigration. The statement portly Rex made is … “this is all you are good for whore.” 

Welcome to America Sandra. Welcome to quaint Long Island. I bet you miss the Trinidadian sun. You learned the hard way there’s no such thing as the American dream. The streets here aren’t paved with gold. Just blood, snot, spit, cum and urine.

Oh yes, Sandra had numerous “sharp force injuries” to her face, torso, beasts, left thigh and “vaginal area.” 

There is no time to lose but still time enough to win.

Rex you fucked up with the hair again. Sandra’s shirt that you pulled up over her head so that her breasts would show. It had one of your hairs on it. Rex they also found hair on Sandra’s arm that belonged to the woman that you lived with at your Massapequa Park home – that you got from mommy and daddy. 

This woman moved out before you tortured and murdered Sandra at the house. But some of her hair remained. What caused her to move Rex. Something you said? Your ugly face … your immense gut … your fascination with guns and killing. Flatulence like mustard gas. Her gain was Sandra’s loss.

Since 2014 Suffolk County Police blamed Sandra’s killing on John “White Trash” Bittrolff who killed – well we do not know how many people he killed. But he was convicted of killing two women including a 20 year old named Colleen that graduated from the high school not far from me. I used to run pass routes for my son at her school. 

Suffolk Cops blamed Bittrolff for Costilla’s horrific murder but never charged him for it. Rex, that’s why you kept doing Internet searches on the man who was getting credit for your kill. 

Although Suffolk Cops blamed Bittrolff for Sandra’s murder they knew almost immediately that he did not kill her. They knew in 2014 – right when they blamed him. Big problem: the DNA found on Sandra did not match Bittrolff’s DNA. Why’d they continue to blame Bittrolff – who it took them over two decades to arrest and charge. Because Bittrolff was a convenient way to get that pesky unsolved murder off the books. Hell they blamed white trash Bittrolff for all of Rex’s other killings ten years before they knew that it was Rex that killed poor Sandra Costilla. 

That is excellent police work – is it not? Eventually they got the killer. Blame and pray it goes away. This is MAGA country. It’s not about what happened. It’s about what you say happened.

On November 19, 2000, three individuals were hunting with a dog in a wooded area of Manorville. At approximately 10:50 a.m. the hunter’s dog led the group to a black plastic bag wrapped with duct tape. The bag was located approximately one mile west of Halsey Manor Road and north of Mill Road. Mill Road is identified as dump site 1 (“DS-1”) in Rex’s BTK Manual. This is a half mile away from where Rex will dump Jessica.

Inside the bag, the hunters rifled through additional black plastic bags. They found a nude torso missing both hands severed above the wrists and the right leg severed mid-calf – tattoo successfully removed. Valerie’s torso, legs, and arms were bound with rope.

On April 4, 2011, Valerie’s skull, hands, and right foot were discovered along Ocean Parkway, just east of Gilgo Beach less than 1.5 miles east from where Jessica Taylor’s skull, hands, and forearm were discovered.

Examination of Valerie revealed injuries to the left mid and lateral breast in the form of “two contiguous ragged defects,” caused by post-mortem mutilation of her breast with a sharp object.

They found hair too. It belonged to Rex’s daughter Victoria.

A Forensic Scientist with the Suffolk County Crime Laboratory “SCCL” compared the garbage bags containing the 2011 remains of Valerie Mack to the garbage bags containing the 2011 remains of Jessica Taylor. The SCCL noted similarities in the bags as to material, color, seal location, knots, perforations, size, and type of closure. The District Attorney states this connected: 

the Mack and Taylor cases not only by location (Manorville and Gilgo Beach “dump sites”), victimology (petite sex workers) and modus operandi (decapitation, dismemberment, and “dump” of identifiable body parts, e.g., skull and hands near Gilgo Beach, while the other portions of the victims were “dumped” in Manorville), but also via supplies, i.e., similar garbage bags utilized in both crimes.

A Forensic Anthropologist with the City of New York Office of Chief Medical Examiner noted similarities in the type of cutting instrument used to dismember Valerie and Jessica. The Forensic Anthropologist analyzed the cut bones of both. He concluded that “a hand-powered saw, with similar blade widths,” were utilized in the dismemberments of both Jessica and Valerie. This is another link between the two victims, but also to the BTK Planning Manual – “SAW / CUTTING TOOLS.”

It gets morbid …

 From amongst the over 350 electronic devices seized in various search warrants of rotund Rex’s home, office, storage facilities, etc. specific items connected to Valerie were located.

In the months leading up to Valerie’s disappearance and murder Rex accessed pornographic images including breast mutilation and binding women with rope. This matches “the injuries inflicted on Valerie’s breast and how the rope ligatures were utilized” – how she was tied up. For September 2000, investigators observed a large uptick in downloads of pornographic “images depicting Bondage, Discipline, Sadism, and Masochism (“BDSM”). These pornographic downloads were discovered on a compact disc located in Heuermann’s home office.” That is around the time he grabbed Valerie or was planning to grab her. 

Again I ask with all of that wanking how can you still be so hefty.

On May 23, 2020, and July 30, 2020, Rex’s home IP Address was used to access Gilgonews.com – a website maintained by the SCPD to publicize information regarding the Gilgo Beach investigation. On May 23, 2020, at approximately 11:30 p.m., Rex’s home IP address visited the web page highlighting the upcoming identification of “Manorville Jane Doe,” who would, five days later, be identified as Valerie Mack. 

On July 30, 2020, at approximately 10:50 p.m., Rex’s home IP address once again visited the specific portions Gilgonews.com devoted to Valerie. I am sure fat boy wanked.

In March of 2025 affidavits filed by the prosecution also indicate that out of the seven victims Valerie is the only one that was killed during a period of time where Rex’s family is at home. For Sandra Rex lived alone. For the other five Rex’s family was on long vacations. 

This leads to the question of where Rex did what he did to Valerie. I can tell you right now it wasn’t a motel. Too much screaming. Not enough time for serious torture. Too much blood and gore. Too hard to walk around with body parts. It wasn’t somewhere in the woods either for the same reasons. Too much screaming. Not enough time. 

Either Rex had another torture chamber somewhere else which leads one to wonder – did he have an accomplice. Or Rex’s family knows everything.

Or as Wayne Whitty conjectures Rex’s family was away but the task force doesn’t know it. Wayne is protective of Rex’s wife and daughter. For some reason. But he could be right. 

You tell me … 

Stereotypical serial killers keep mementos and are interested in their press. Rex does not disappoint. 

On July 15, 2023, while executing a search warrant in Rex’s Manhattan offices agents observed a People Magazine issued on November 7, 2016, in Rex’s personal office. The magazine, is entitled:

BODIES ON THE BEACH: HUNT FOR THE LONG ISLAND SERIAL KILLER: Who is the cold-blooded murderer killing women and dumping their bodies on a New York Beach?



It was recovered from a cardboard box directly in front of Rex’s work desk. 

On July 16, 2023, agents recovered a “New York” magazine issued on June 6, 2011, from the basement gun vault of Rex’s house. The magazine featured a cover story regarding “A Serial Killer on Long Island:”

On May 21, 2024, agents seized newspapers from Rex’s bedroom, which included a New York Post newspaper that had been issued on July 29, 2003. The newspaper included an article entitled “Serial Killer Eyed in L.I. Slay,” which contained details surrounding the disappearance and murders of Valerie Mack and Jessica Taylor. How did they miss it the first fucking search:

In other bad news Bob Hope also died. He was only 100 years old.



The task force believes:

Heuermann’s possession of numerous publications relating to not only the “Gilgo Four,” but also Sandra Costilla, Valerie Mack, and Jessica Taylor, indicates the Defendant’s attempts to remind himself of the events that occurred throughout the murders of each victim, revealing Rex A. Heuermann’s utter lack of disregard or remorse for his actions, or the victims.

Wrong. 

He kept these publications solely to whack off:

Rex how are you still so fucking fat.